Vince McMahon accuser Janel Grant wrote “love letter” to him but claims she was coerced

Is there any way that I can adequately tell you how much my life has changed for the better since we met? How can I put into words how you have filled the void in my heart that I thought would remain empty forever?

True love cannot be found where it does exist. Nor can true love be hidden where it does exist. It’s not something that you find. It’s something that finds you.

I didn’t you who you were the day I met you but I immediately knew that a missing piece had clicked into place the moment I saw your face. I love you straightforwardly, without complexity or pride. I love you because I know no other way than this. But we are so close that when your hand on my leg is my hand. Your arms wrapped around me are my arms. And when you close your eyes at night, I fall asleep on you. The thought of you makes the day begin. The tune of your laugh makes my heart sing along. Your smiles, your ups, your lows, your brow furrows, your joys and your woes are second nature to me now. Like breathing out and breathing in.

Every time I see you and walk into your embrace, I close my eyes and exhale because all is right with the world. There is a light and warmth that you radiate and when I step into your arms, I am home. I am at peace. I’m the best and most authentic version of myself in your presence. I feel understood, accepted loved and appreciated for who I am at my core. You see my heart. You see my soul. And you helped me the one thing I feared I lost for good – my smile. Nobody else brings that out in me. And then I realized why. There are few people who know the secret of making a heaven here on earth. You are one of those rare people.

That sense of heaven is the very thing I want to give back to you. I want nothing more than for you to come home to love and happiness. I want you to feel warmth, joy, music and laughter radiating from your door before you even open it. I want you to walk into the sight of soft twinkle lights from your Christmas tree, the sound of sweet music, and the smell home cooking (eggs on multigrain toast, fresh baked pumpkin bread, or lasanga). I want you to turn the corner and be welcomed joyfully – with smiles and arms that are opened wide – ready to welcome you and pour you a cream soda or something stronger depending on your day. Just as I consider your heart my home, I want you to feel the excitement that someone who loves and adores you with all her heart is waiting to repay the favor. I’ll wrap my arms around you, kiss you sweetly and sway to the tune of a song that plays just for us.

Even though so few people know about us, the most freeing feeling this year came when we got to act like a couple – openly, freely – when Mickey, Paul and the Chef were around us. We’ve never had that luxury before. What a treat is it was – as so natural – to be us outside of our secret bubble, even if only for a short moment. We must make quite a pair in person, huh? Our love runs deeper than the obvious physical chemistry to a place that can only be considered a spiritual connection. It must be intoxicating to be around two people who are this far gone for one another. Whether it’s your assistants, a chef, Brad, Nick, Johnny or whoever sees us together, I think it’s undeniable to them – or anyone who sees us – that we are in love with a capital L. Others who think they know you so well must be surprised when they see us act so sweetly together – practically like kids. Our energy is so playful. The carnal component is clearly off the charts between us but we are equally sweet and funny around each other too. When we are together, it’s like nobody else exists.

From the moment I met you, I tried to protect my heart even though I know I was already falling hard for you. I wasn’t looking for love. I was looking for my myself – the person who I lost so long ago from trauma, sadness, abuse, and overall life kicking me in the ass. I did not anticipate, when you opened your door, walking into my soulmate like that. Even though I wish I found you earlier, we weren’t ready to meet yet. Perhaps we wouldn’t have appreciated what we have right now. But when the time was right and our paths lined up, those doors opened. And all the obstacles that kept us apart all those years had been removed. The chance for happiness and love appeared and the adventure started.

I know you said that people forget who you are. There are so few people who actually know you for the wonderful, tender, vulnerable, heart-on-your-sleeve soul that you really are. It’s amazing how you meet thousands of people – they come and they go – and none of them get to know you much less really touch your heart. And then you meet one person and your life is changed forever. They start a new chapter in your story. You’ve rewritten my story by simply being in it. You are the someone – the one person – who gives me the strength, hope, love and support to overcome the things that were so traumatic in my life. In you, I’ve found the person who really gets me. I’ve never felt so complete, loved so passionately and protected so fiercely. Nor have I ever been given as gift as precious as your heart.

In the past, I had either put myself in, or allowed others to put me in a box that didn’t fit and I hadn’t lived my own life as myself for the longest time. I forgot who I was. The void was not only deep and dark but it hurt. As strange as it sounds, in meeting you, I felt like I met my soul’s own reflection and that locked-up part of me that I had put away so long ago. I’d always felt like there was something missing that I’d given up on yet was always seeking. But then I met the person who completed that for me and thought “oh, this is what my heart was searching for.” It’s almost like you reconnected a wire in my head. And now that I know what happiness, love and respect are, I can’t ever look back. I think I’d miss you even if we’d never met because somewhere in my memory – perhaps from a different lifetime – I knew you, I loved you and I’d be searching for that feeling until the day our paths crossed again.

There were moments where I wondered if I’d ever find romantic love again. Or if I ever really experienced it in the first place. If during any of those moments where I dreamt up the perfect person, it wouldn’t come close to you. I love that you are the most handsome, radiant, charismatic person in any room. I love that when you really laugh, it’s with your entire face. If every word I said could make you laugh, I’d talk forever admiring that handsome heart shaped face of yours. I love your honesty. Your passion for life. Your sense of adventure. Your eyes with the beautiful kaledescope of colors and your big beautiful vulnerable heart. You are the kind of many love songs – or in this case – love letters are written for. And people don’t write love letters about compatibility, shared goals, stimulating conversations and admiration. They write them about the greatest of love stories – the crazy, once in a lifetime experiences that forever change a person. They’re written for couples like us.

I’ve said it before but I love watching the beautiful apples of your cheeks raise into the sweetest smile every time we kiss. I look forward to that moment so much. I love that when you dance, you can be so silly about it or you can sweep me off my feet. I love that you hum tunes to me of songs that you don’t even know the words to. And I love, over the past 2¾ years we’ve been together, that your face and spirit is lighter and brighter with every passing day. You made room in your life and your heart for me and that will forever be the greatest gift you will have ever given me.

We don’t get to spend as much time together as we’d like to. And I accept that because I accept who you are. When I’m missing you, time moves so slowly. And when we are together, it goes fast. Way too fast. I wish I could make it stop. I want to freeze frame the moment we are together as those are the moments that become the priceless paintings that will forever hang on the wall of my heart.

Most of my life I have felt alone, even when I was in a room full of people. My relationships in general have had a pattern and I end up pushing people away before they get the chance to hurt me. That was a toxic and lonely way to go through life and it prevented me from actually finding any happiness. That was until I met you. For you, I’m willing to be vulnerable, take a chance and tear down any wall that the actions of other made me put up. With you, I realize that you never lose by loving. But you will always lose by holding back. Now, by opening myself up and surrendering myself to you and our chemistry, I realize that nobody knows me as well as you do. It turns out only you could save lonely me. And now if I were to image a future moment in my life where all my dreams come true, I think about who I would want standing next to me to share it with. And that person is you. I want you in my corner just as badly as I want to you in yours, cheering you on and applauding all that you do. After almost 3 years together, it’s like my life isn’t even real to me unless you’re there and in it and I’m sharing it all with you. And as much as I know you love me, you never find a person who care or loves you more than I do because of the person you are at your core.

Occasionally, admittedly, I’m recognize that I’m a bit of a pain in the ass. Yes, I KNOW I’m a pain. I’m not perfect. I’ll annoy you occasionally, say stupid things, then take it back and go through struggles that confuse you. But you handle it in stride. Thank you for putting up with me and seeing all of the good despite it. When I’ve been at my most lonely, unhappy, frustrating, confused or dark depressed places, you’ve not only put up with me but you loved me despite it. When I’ve felt like a sad ugly version of myself, you still managed to see a beautiful soul. And that’s proof Vince that you make the world a better place because you see the good in it. And that’s proof of something that I hope you to take away from this letter more than anything else.

During our time together, I’ve come to realize to there are two big day in any love story: the day you meet the person of your dreams and the day you confess to them how you really feel. It’s not marriage, paperwork, a business decision and a million people you don’t really know watching you walk down the aisle. It’s being vulnerable enough to put your heart in the other persons hands by saying three words.
Eight letters. Say it and I’m yours forever.

I’ll end this letter with two thoughts. The first is that life is short. And a person can only have so many great moment – the kind that genuinely change them for the better. I’m so blesses because you have given me many. The second is that there are only so many chances at love – if any at all – that one is given in their lifetime. Again, I’m the luckiest person on the planet because I found you. And you, Vince McMahon, are THE ONE.

For the yesterdays and today’s and the tomorrows I can hardly wait for, thank you my sweet beast. My heart is yours – always and forever.

Janel